So, It's been awhile.

And i think it's about time i get back to 'Blogging' Right?
but i think i'll leave that untill tomorow.. Being as it's now half past one in the morning and all my creative energy is drained.

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Hair cuts

Hate them i do..

Allways leave me like "wow oh my lord thats different!" specially today. Re styled, Re shaped and basically "CHOPPED OFF!" my hair.. Being a casually long haired fellow, What i have now is pretty much a huge change. Im sure going to get some stick for this at work, But i think it looks good anyway thats all that matters right?

Everyone who has seen my photo on facebook now say it looks nice 'Lovely' and that i do actually suit it :)
main reason that i did the chop is because i recently got my ear stretched to a 3mm and plan to go much more, and want to actually be able to see zed piercing instead of hiding it behind my curtain of hair. i just hope i truly look ok, I hate people judging *Boohoo :'(*

Cant wait untill it grows just a tad though, so it grows into the orginal style i had planned for! yes yes i'll let you know how it goes at work this afternoon eh, If i make it out alive!

No joke, Blogging ftw

Blogging helps.
No matter how much you like to write, Or how indepth you wish to be.
Just let it out, if your currently reading this.. your clearly interested in what other people have to say or your just really really bored right now, but atleastif you start your own you can have your own say! it's fun :)

I've only recently started again myself, As i miss being able to let out what ever i have to say with no fear of being judged. As you dont know me, Theres no fear in opening up. But i believe if i get more people to join in, And add me 'follow me' And so on my little community will get bigger and more peoples blogs to read myself to inspire myself, And so on.

I know of one friend who already has caught the 'Blogging bug' because of me and has recently found peace in letting her stresses and problems out safely out of reach and harm of any other human which is much better for the world, trust me. I believe in writting is a great way to express and find new depths to yourself and other peoples feelings.

So give me a shout if you start one yourself and we can 'Blog' ;)

www.twitter.com/leerawr

What comes next..

Im at a stage right now, Were it seems like everyone has there mind set on what they want, Or plan to do with there lives. And im here sitting back and watching, as im still on the stage of 'ERMWTF!?' and i used to find it quite a luxury.
The doing what i want, Enjoying myself wasnt so hard to live with.. but lately i have found myself getting mad, Smoking more, Racking my brain for ideas for 'What does lee want to do?' Which im still yet to figure out.

Quote: "Is music really my only comfort? and love.. Or is there more. i want more"

What happened to the days of being a kid, Were you wanted to be everything. Every other week you'd have nother magical idea of what your going to grow up into. Then you suddenly hit the age of 19 (my age) and be left stumped.. Atleast this is how i am, I think its because you start to realise what ever you pick you really have to be 100% sure, As if you pick the wrong path to take your stuck with it, And i really dont wish to do that.

I want to be well off, I want to rich but who doesn't? i want to be able to have time for my family, i want to be able to have time for myself. I want that job that i go into everyday with a smile not a frown. But i dont think thats so easily gained when your stood with your 'building bricks' Of your life like...Hmph.

i wish to play my guitar and become famous (:

The start

Well, My first ever blog. And sadly it's a downer of a time for me right now!

Ever get that feeling, Or emotion were you just feel your not being told the whole truth? not exactly a 'Lie' Persay but you know somethings been hidden? from you. Makes me mad. I cannot go into exact details right now about why but what i can say is, It's about someone very dear to me and very close. I love her very much so and right now im on the edge of confusion to what to believe, Shes not done anything wrong. Just theres alot of things 'Tripping' Themselfs up right now.

Started off with our plans being cancled this weekend, Made us both very sad. with no reason behind why i accepted the fact her family insisted her home and let her go. For the rest of the day i wished and i hoped i'd hear from her soon! but i didnt, Not untill way way later in the day, Almost night even was i to get a text off her neighbour declaring theres now trouble at home and shes unable to text me as there not wanting her to talk to me..?
Then im told to not pick up me phone or to txt back to hers as its not her its her parents, Trying to reach me!? :/
To stop any further confusion for any of you, Lets stop there and just say it carried on like this, Yet with no propper explanation, have just been told shes going to come see me tomorow and she misses and loves me very much so and right now her family are being very horrible and very nasty towards her and she needs me, Is just horrible sitting here not knowing whats next. Will i see her tomorow? Hmm.

Anyway, So im left with nothing left to do than to rack my brain and worry like no tomorow. Get more and more confused and just pray that tomorow starts off better, And that theres even a reasonable chance i'll see my girl. I had such good plans with her this weekend! :(

Anyway, I just had to blab this out somewhere. Didnt really want to lump it onto any particular person alone so here you are... Im sharing my crap with you all. Enjoy.

P.S i apologise for any typos or incorrect spellings. It's very late right now ;) shall sort it tomorow!